This is Rhys' story. Rhys identifies as trans masculine.

 Even before deciding to go on hormones, choosing a bathroom was always a struggle. If I had a choice, I avoided public ones altogether. After being able to pass as male, and gaining some much needed confidence, I used them more casually. Even now though, sometimes having to wait for a stall, while there are plenty of urinals available, can feel pretty dysphoric.

 When I first started hormones, my shots quickly became a weekly ritual for me. Sometimes they are painless, but after 3 years, the skin on my legs is thickening with scar tissues, it's becoming more and more difficult to have a smooth injection. Unfortunately injections are the only affordable option for me.

 Shaving has been and still is an enjoyable ritual for me. When I began hormones, having hair on my face and body was definitely not a big priority. Now I find comfort in watching it regrow only a few days after I shave it clear.

 This was the very first photo I took of myself after surgery. Many people comment on my lack of smile, not understanding how surreal the experience was. I was a week post op and still quite sore, but I felt incredibly free after hiding for so long. It wasn't long after that my smile began to show, bigger and more genuine in each photo I took. You can literally see the process of reality sinking in as my scars healed.

 One of the occasional annoyances I face is finding shoes! While a size 7/8 in women's sizes were common, being a size 5/6 in men's often means I'm shopping in the teen or kids section. This definitely doesn't help me grow from the teenage boy persona I struggle to escape.

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